From me to you 🫵

Hi everyone its been a while. There will be typo errors ( sort later. ) on phone . I Really have to be more professional and use my laptop , the problem with ADHD in my case is i literally type faster than my up to date laptop it freezes. Then two mins later i have the invisible man typing stuff out :-). So any ways please stick with me as im writing just as it comes so I might go a 1000 mile journey to get to somthing that would take a min. ,fingers crossed that more recovery stuff , mental health and more comes with hopefully more regularity. Right basically, i need to get this off my chest in order to move forward and enable me to be productive fewwww 😅.ok here goes

I took a drink (and i have to say it made me feel a fraud) ( the end of the world) . 🌍 Its not . However i do take into consideration it really does mess with your mind . Im talking a million and one things. My trade mark that i thought was LONG GONE!. Is wanting to phone or contact people who did me wrong like a quarter of a century ago and im only 42. 🥹.

It does not undo all the GOOD YOU HAVE DONE !!!. At the same time it fucks up things because people mostly loved ones . They doubt you . Now this made me mad and irrate. However when i break things down ( oasis live forever plays in background) . The bottom line is they are not to blame, why should you blame or be angry with someone whos life would have been in all reality easier if the just fucked off like a LONG TIME AGO!. They have every right to doubt us. All the shit we caused maybe in the past but it can be extremely fast to rear its ugly head at the first sign of intoxication wether we didn’t mean it ( we probably didn’t) that’s irrelevant.

The bottom line is everyone has to be better than their own excuses. I choose that photo as it’s better to show real life. I hope by doing so i can post a nice healthy photo in time. In my own opinion and experience “ the eyes dont lie” all addiction is the same i can personally see a mile away if someone that i know has relapsed. I maybe bump into them and they look off colour and pass it off as the flu or some other excuse “ we are masters of it” .

However there comes a time they can no longer deny it so rather than speak to you they pretend not to see you which is heartbreaking 💔. Now i have oasis “ sad song “ randomly playing in the background . I thought a big part of the point in this blog was to write it in real time , not pre rehearsed. To be honest and also show gratitude to be able to sit and share my emotions and thoughts with you.

This blog is genuinely from ME to YOU the reader. I had an extremely touching email from south dakota. The person if your reading this touched my heart ❤️ . I think the person questioned if i was alive, as it had been so long since id written. The told me my blogs were awesome , to hear that frome the other side of the pond was “AWESOME ! “ so thank you !! ❤️

Id like to give a special mention to chris wild , Jeff Johnston ( hope ive spelled that right) Ryan hampton, and Oisin murphy. All extremely inspirational people who i have so much respect. I think the way ryan is going about his business he will have the new presidents respect never mind the full of nevadas !! Truly remarkable all of these guys . 😂👍.

I came to the conclusion on self reflecting on a lot. People will say always talk to someone ect. See in my honest opinion, ( only mines) i really think you have to speak to your inner self . Ask yourself? What do you want from life? What is your short term and long term goals? Do you know why?

It’s simple really? Only me or your own self can do anything about it. Dont raise the bar too high , set goals that are achievable no matter how small. A goal achievement is an accomplishment right?

The best advice ive ever received is this “ its better to be creative rather than destructive “ & its better to leave behind a legacy than leave nothing . Try to aim to go to bed happy. Always remember a bad start to a day does not mean a bad end to the day.

I hope this had made a tiny bit of sense to at least 1 person . Best wishes Joe . If you like my blogs please share as it encourages me to write more.